The good, the bad, and the ugly of summer 2008

This is how we deal!

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Hank

We have had Hank over the weekend for a "trial run". This has been no trial run! The minute we brought this dog home I knew there was absolutely no way the kids were willing to give this dog up. He is pretty cute and I have to admit I like him quite a bit. I am a little bit worried though when the responsibility is all mine and I know it will be. Renan and the kids assure me that they will help out. Hmmm..........we'll see.

Looking Back!

I spent some time looking back at a bunch of pictures of the kids, it is amazing how time flies! Zoe will be starting 8th grade and Ezra will be in 5th. Here are just a few of my favorites.



Ezra went through a serious rescue hero phase. For Halloween that year he was "Billy Blaze". I spent an incredible amount of time on his costume and I thought it was awesome. The other day Ezra told me that he loved that costume, but was a little disappointed that it didn't shoot out real water. I am glad he waited to tell me that!

Zoe being her usual goofy self. I wonder where she gets that from?
Zoe would love me to braid here hair in little tiny braids. It would take forever, so I would make here wear the braids for at least a few days. This is what she looked like when she took them out. It makes me want to rub her head really hard. Only girls would know the good pain that comes from doing that.
This was Ezra's first black eye. He didn't even think it was cool.

Ezra and Carson

Stuck in a moment

It has been exactly 1 month since my father died. You would think that the pain would ease up, but it doesn't. I miss my dad terribly and I absolutely hate this whole ordeal. When I look around and see all the sadness in the world and I know that I am not the only one that feels like this, it makes me feel worse. I hate to feel like this, but I also feel sorry for everyone else that is struggling in this hard world. I know there is a lot of good in the world, but I definitely feel like I am stuck in a moment.
I used to have the song by U2 "Stuck in a Moment" as the ringtone for my cell phone. I loved it when my phone rang and I would hear.......

I'm not afraid
Of anything in this world
There's nothing you can throw at me
That I haven't already heard

I'm just trying to find
A decent melody
A song that I can sing
In my own company

I never thought you were a fool
But darling look at you
You gotta stand up straight
Carry your own weight
These tears are going nowhere baby

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And now you can't get out of it

Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it


I will always miss my dad and I will always feel the sorrow but I can definitely work on my attitude a bit and get myself together even though I am stuck in a moment.

This is how I feel!

I know I should probably have something better to say but I am not quite there yet. Today my sister Stephanie found out that she will be losing more of her hair than she thought from the radiation. Some how that does not seem very fair, but again LIFE IS CRAP. My mom thinks life sucks sounds better, but I am sticking with crap. I definitely need to start working on my attitude because my father is probably looking down on me right now and shaking his head. Well Dad, Life is crap sometimes!